Yoga Sutra 1.3
Then the Seer abides in its own nature.
The brief moments when we are truly present represent the seer. When we are completely comfortable in our own skin, yet have deepened our awareness pass the skin into the raw layers of who we really are. We no longer identify ourselves with the person reflected back to us in the mirror.
Image is Everything
Connecting on this level has always been a challenge for me personally. As I child I sustained substantial burns on my face and hands. Grade school proved to be brutal for a young girl who thought she was just like everyone else until she looked in the mirror. The image reflected back needed work. Little did I know, I was looking in a broken mirror and just wasn’t aware of the cracks.
So, I did what any smart girl would do, the more I realized my differences, the better I learned to cover them up. Make-up became my best friend and we got along great! Before long the image in the mirror blended with pretty ones before my eyes. Though occasionally anxiety and embarrassment flooded when someone stared or a child pointed. Years of insecurity weakened my self-esteem and bliss still proved to be elusive.
All the Kings Horses
No matter how much I blended, the truth of the matter remained, I was different. The image still appeared pieced together, dirty, and distorted. Then one day, God said, “You’re going to be a yoga teacher,” and the flood gates opened. He showed me little by little that indeed it wasn’t me that was broken, it wasn’t me that was pretty or ugly, it wasn’t even me that was burned. I cannot be reflected in a mirror on a wall.
At this point self-realization started to happen. This is a process. Can I say I don’t wear make-up now? No. I can say that I have more moments with less and that I am comfortable. Luckily, the people in my life are supportive and enable me to let my guard down. I’m learning to renounce physical beauty and finding that often the make-up, the name brand clothing, and the beautiful blond locks curled into perfection only create a barrier and breed insecurity in someone else.
The Performance of my Life
“I have come into the world as light.”~The Holy Bible
When I was that little girl, I shined. I was pure and I knew God. My goal now is to move back. Not back in time or in maturity, but back to pure, back to still, back to light, back to God. I realize the image reflected back to me is not in the mirror, it is in the image of the person before me. It is in the faces of my children, the student in my class, the person on the street, and humanity as a whole. I am encompassed of it all.
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